Everything just makes me really mad! All those post and all those good advices and ideas! I love them but it makes me soooo mad, because I wish I actually had time to do it and to think about myself and time to work on my ED recovery. But I am so deep into my ED, and my sleep pattern is soooo off, that I am just barely surviving my everyday life. Really! I am behind in school work and really stressed because of the midterms coming up again… and I cant focus on studying and stuff… but I rather would wann do fun creative stuff like the crayon thin etc. I am creative and I love doing arts… I just don’t have time to do it I am sooo mad at myself. But there is nothing to do about it I guess. It’s just like when I see a cool post like that I am like “WTF?!!?!?!?!” Why can’t I just be home working on my ED recovery and actually using all this good nice awesome creative advice on this website! I feel like I just wanna destroy everything on the website and I remember Kati talking once about taking a piece of paper and just fill it up with red crayons when we get mad etc… and I just feel like putting that whole website on a piece of paper and just destroy every single post on it!
But it is probably my ED voice not liking that I even open the website.
Please don’t take it personal or anything, it’s just me, well it’s just my ED voice being mad at everyone, everything and blablabla. I am done. lol