It’s like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
It’s like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. My time is now. I don’t know what I was waiting for, I was waiting for a sign to stop eating disordered behaviours and begin my full recovery. Yes, there have been times where I have tried healthy eating, not restricting, not binge eating and not purging but I have never fully given my heart and soul to the process of recovery.
I was watching YouTube videos of eating disorder recovery stories and they have really inspired me. If you really WANT recovery then you WILL make it happen!
I have been fighting eating disorders for over 10 years and I can tell you they have been the worst 10 years of my life. The hardest thing is knowing I have let it go on for so long. I could have made healthier decisions at any moment in time but I chose not to.
I am giving myself to recovery because I am worth more than a number on a scale and I deserve a happy, healthy life. I have a passion for health and this is also motivating me to be the best person I can be and I can tell you now an eating disorder has no part in it.
These issues have been with me so long that I now feel it is a part of my identity and that is going to need a lot of work.
If you are struggling with an eating disorder and are considering recovery, remember you are never going to be ready for recovery. It is scary and unfamiliar but I know it is going to be worth it. So let’s kick our eating disorders to the curb and find healthier ways to cope because you deserve recovery. We can get through this together.
So motivational!!!! I am so proud of you!! And you are so insightful!! I agree that we will never quite feel "ready" for recovery and it will always be a challenge, but it is really worth it!!! Keep working honey and keep us posted on how you are doing as well as what works for you:) <3
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