It’s time again to write something down to kind of order my thoughts.
So study time is over and with this all the stress. My ED was really present these days and I even lost my hope and it was just like “okay, do what ever your ED tells you because you know that you can’t concentrate without it”. And I felt and still feel so horribly bad about this.
But now it’s nearly funny how fast things changed again. I gained back a certain serenity and also my strength to fight the ED. This was so nice to feel because I really thought all my progress was just lost and that I could never ever do it. I enjoy my life again.
But, unfortunately, the next stressfull situation is just about to come. I will go to Germany tomorrow and stay there for a week for working. This means STRESS all day long: I can’t eat when I want and my routine is still kind of important for me (and most of the times we just get to eat once in like 10 hours of work), I don’t even have the change to binge (which is good on the one hand but really freaks me out on the other my ED is just getting louder when it knows something is not even possible) and I have to eat the food they give us. And since this is an event catering company, they have such fatty and greasy food, honestly it’s just super hard to deal with.
Do you have any tips on how to deal with that? Oh and thanks to everybody here for being so supportive, especially Kati.