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Hey Kati,
So I have been a SHer for almost 19 years started around 8… so maybe 10-15 people know maybe a few more not really sure ive been caught so many times school where I use to go to youth group and where I work and go to school is the most recent no one has ever told my family and they have never done anything or really ever said anything up until jan. my boss/teacher found out through some of my co-workers saw some marks anywho she told me she needed to set me up a therapist so Ive been with one with my hubby loved him felt like so at ease etc… still talk to him about things through email but he is a crazy busy guy so I don’t want to bug him much. so I was scared to start to see this lady I wanted to run didn’t and after a few sessions told her about my past of sexual abuse ED and SH. I was asked my opinion on my past of Sexual abuse told her that I felt most of it was my fault when she didn’t like that she couldn’t change my opinion she ran for the hills FAST! So #2 came a long she was older proper but I just want to deal with this all… so ignoring (still) that I am not comfortable etc… so now only 2 sessions in Ive lied to her and not told her a lot of things parts just not full details… she thinks that my SH and all is just due to low self esteem and not my past… im not a therapist so maybe im the one that’s wrong
So my question do I justs saw forget it kind of feel like giving up on seeing anyone all together… just keep seeing this lady… I just feel so like just maybe trying to deal with this on my own not that its worked before… really is there even any point of trying ive done it for almost 19 yrs I guess I hope it may just faze itself out at some point…
Hey honey!! I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time finding a therapist who you “click with” and feel safe talking about things with.. I would encourage you to search for a therapist who deals in past trauma and abuse… they will understand and hopefully make you feel safe enough to talk about it all and process through it
xoxo
thanks not much luck scared therapist number 2 away with my opinion of my sexual abuse and my blame wheel she left it as here are some emergency contacts helplines hospitals i urge you to go to them if needed… i think this may just be at this alone now… thanks for everything Kati watching your videos and reading really helps figure things out 13 days self harm free…